Somethings not working right...

So, it's Monday, and I weighed in. I was a little concerned, and I'm not sure why, maybe past failures creating a voice of doubt in my mind? Well, I gained weight. I weighed in at 203lbs. I was disappointed. 2.2lbs gained means that I didn't loose the 1.5lbs I wanted to. I am trying to remind myself that my activity level is severely limited due to the recovery from being in the hospital. I also am trying to stay positive. This means I need to continue my work on portions.

Success: It's been 18 days since I've had any form of soda. I'm mostly drinking water, with some occasional herbal tea, and a cup or two of coffee (three cups in 18 days, if we're counting here...).

I'm also eating fresh, raw produce every day. Broccoli, cauliflower, grapefruit, apples, bananas, spinach, something fresh and raw every day. I've been trying to reduce my portion sizes, and I've started using child sized plates so I can have a full plate, and still not be over-eating.

I walked for 30 minutes yesterday, and I'm going to try to do 30 minutes of step on the Wii Balance Board tonight. I'm going to get there. This was a frustrating weigh in for me, but it just goes to show that I need to continue to improve, build on what I'm doing, Eat Smarter & Move More!

Dinner tonight consisted of brown rice, chicken breast, sauteed mushrooms, gravy, corn, and green beans. Yes, two vegetables...in my attempt to fill our tummies with healthy foods, I decided that offering two vegetables might aid us in eating less of the more calorie dense foods, while still providing the necessary nutrition to live healthier lives! I also had about 3 cups of fresh spinach with about 2 TB of light italian dressing and 1/8 cup of cheese.

Slow start...oops!

Wow, so I started this blog with great intentions of documenting a healthier year, and landed myself in the hospital on a ventilator...not the start I had thought I was going for, but definitely reassurance that I need to get healthier.

I was a bit scared to weigh myself today, I didn't know if I'd be shocked by how much weight I lost in the hospital....or disappointed that it wasn't much. I feel like I've lost a lot of mass. I know I've lost a lot of muscle - I'm very weak, and can't lift the same things I could before I got sick.

Well, it wasn't so bad. I weighed in at 200.9lbs. I lost 7.7lbs. This would be great news if muscle didn't go first...but it does. So I have a long road to recovery - but I have a lot of motivation to be healthier.

Today, I walked to the office to pay my rent, and I spent 3 minutes on the Wii Basic Step game. That 3 minutes wasn't much, but my legs were shaking, and I have to go slow. Slower than I want to. I've been more active today than all week though, and it feels good. On ward and up ward! I'm going to continue eating small portions of healthy foods, and work on increasing the amount of exercise I can tolerate - without pushing myself backwards into another health crisis.

One step at a time, one healthy meal at a time, trusting God the whole time!